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(Friday, July 31, 2009-)
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So.. back.. i guess this year will be a weird and special year.. seems like everything is going to change.. i will miss my birthday.. will miss christmas.. will miss new year.. will miss chinese new year.. miss so many big events uh.. so weird.. so weird.. reason being? guess also can hit the jackpot? haha.. October to end of March 2010 uh... Whats next?

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(Tuesday, July 28, 2009-)
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oh oh!! back to normal!!

can put some decorations..

sister's birthday plus some old pics.. haha

oh ya.. imagine ME.. holding 40 ballons walking from illuma to bugis street(Mac) area.. and everyone looking at me.. so... WEIRD? haha

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(Thursday, July 23, 2009-)
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testing testing.. lol..

so weird... got 1 small box here.. cannot upload photos and all..

anyways.. my leg has hope i guess.. claims the physician.. lets see what will happen next..

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(Tuesday, July 21, 2009-)
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Back to write again!!

i guess. this place is the place where i "shout" out all my thoughts.. this is the place where i can find my true self.. i turned on the TV and saw GOAL 2.. the downside when i turn it on.. the part where everything goes wrong for santi.. is that the part i am having now? cause i don't feel myself.. i don't understand.. somethings is not right..

Yes i am trying hard to change.. but i don't think i am myself.. i feel weird.. is like another person is taking over.. is this how drug addicts feel when they try to quit? if it is.. IT SUCKS!

trainings.. injuried leg is causing my interest.. i can't do SHIT! all i can do is gym and core.. and all who knows me knows that i HATE GYM.. come on.. who love to do core? anyone? i seriously doubt.. and thats what i am doing every training.. it sucks.. looking at others jumping and training to improve and all i can do is core!

i got so much in my i feel like telling others.. so much.. so much.. how i wish i have a comforting listening ear that understands how i feel.. is so uneasy to keep it all inside of me..

back to core.. all i can do now is to lie to myself.. not exactly lying.. just trying to change my mindset.. instead of improving on my jumps.. now all i am telling myself is to get a nice body.. i need to push myself to get a nice set of abs..

i wonder how long can i persuade myself to stay in training.. or will history repeat itself again? will i start skipping trainings and all.. will i once again break the trust and hope that coach have in me..

i guess i am starting to talk rubbish to you.. hopefully i am not getting into your nerves.. whats wrong.. i am sorry if i am starting to bug you 1 too many times.. sorry..

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(Saturday, July 18, 2009-)
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Seems like i am getting back to writing here.. haha..

Finally!! some well deserved weekend rest.. majority of the reports/projects are completed.. however.. there are more to come.. so better fully utilize this weekend.!!

Harry potter and the 1/2 blood prince was rather a disappointing film compared to the rest of the series. looking forward to the next movie(2years?)..

some how some what.. once i get to see and chat with you.. i have a totally different feeling.. what does this represent? i wonder... ... ...

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(Sunday, July 12, 2009-)
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days have pass weeks have passed.. i can tell that i am slowly but surely changing.. thats good right?

theres this feeling.. this unexplainable feeling.. a feeling that make me happy, sad, worried, disappointed, and many many more.. i can't explain it.. i don't know how to explain..

confused..

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(Tuesday, July 7, 2009-)
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Time to type something on this old rusty blog.. somethings wrong with me.. i can feel it.. but i don't know whats wrong.. the urge of changing for the better yet at the same time being huanted by the bad things.. is it so difficult to get a simple job done?

What a mixture of feelings for the pass week.. Happy yet sad.. Enthu yet disappointed.. hyper yet tired.. i am SO LOST!! i wonder why.. guess time will show what will happen to me..

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